:: I CLOSE MY EYES & I SMILE ::

i cannot get enough of "18th floor balcony" by blue october tonight.

takes me back to that beginning-of-a-relationship fun and excitement and nervousness and innocence. that feeling of knowing what you hope you know will come but you fear that it might not and what if it does? it crushes you but the waiting itself is crushing you. in a good way. in the best way. such extreme happiness and anticipation and everything rolled into one.

i miss that.